Eating. Sleeping. Living.
Is becoming something of a chore and something I like doing less and less each day. I know my meals are becoming increasingly more boring but when you are having a particularly horrendous time of it and feel miserable and sick all the time, eating because you have to becomes traumatising. It sounds like I’m being rather OTT but having to eat 140g of protein each day means eating lots of food and right now I want to sick up everything before I pick it up with the fork. The only thing I can think of doing is drinking 3 meal replacement shakes per day and then adding in more protein with my whey until this all passes over.
My sleep is rather erratic at the moment and often plagued by the same visions running through my head. I wake up a lot. By 4am and end up drifing in and out of a very, very light sleep, getting about 15 minutes at a time. Causing me to be really emotional and ratty too. My bladder also seems to be on overdrive and I’m having to go to the loo about 4 or 5 times every night.
This needs to stop but I can’t see an end to oit at the moment. I’m supposed to be going for a doctor’s appointment tomorrow, doubt that’ll happen.
