I’m so utterly miserable right now. Sam, Hamdir and Myles are on their way to Germany and I should have been with them. I actually am horrendously down. I have a week off work and no friends to go and see because they are away having fun. I might as well actually go to work because there is nothing for me to do.

I was so looking forward to going and it was all that was getting me through work. Feel sick and horrible. Fed up. I’m going to bed. Meh. I hate myself for not getting my passport in time. Fucking idiot.