February 2012
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“Currently I’m training twice each day with the exception of when I...”
– Sam Bond, Maximuscle Website
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A little bit different.
Last night when I was at work I let a couple of people in on my goals and aims. Not many people from work know that I have been powerlifting. Those who knew were my team but none of the others. It started off by one of the team leaders asking about diet because he noticed I’d lost a lot of weight. After a while I showed them photos in my Facebook album of the types of body I am aiming for...
Pills
Back to eating a million pills a day. I rattle when I walk AGAIN.
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Lent
Not religious but I’m giving up something for lent.
Looking for a man.
You just watch. A perfect one will decide to intrude upon my life now.
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Being patient.
Just trying to remember why you are doing this. It doesn’t hurt to have some other reasons that make you want to work harder. Like showing those who thought you weren’t worth it what they are missing.
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PASTRIES
Why can’t pastries be made of salad but still taste the same?
*facedesk*
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Migraine incoming.
Can’t even see what I’m typing due to blind spots. Urgh vision almost gone. Night nught Tumnlr. I think I made some typoso. :/
tr1ggap asked: Why makes you think you won't find someone you can have all that with? :/
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It's kind of frightening thinking that I may never...
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Return of the bleh
So not been great again today. Had a meal replacement meal because I felt sick this morning. Sickness went away but came back again. Had some food now but not sure how I’m going to be now I’ve finished. Was going to go to the gym after but don’t fancy it now. Might just do some abs work at home. Use my skipping rope I bought for some cardio.
So busy at work. I really want out...
Better today.
Have eaten properly and not been feeling the need to vomit everywhere. Went to the gym, squatted (that sounds so weird) and then came home. Someone I know from a band started talking to me on fb chat and I haven’t really spoken to them before and they ended up asking for my number… I checked… and they have a girlfriend. Was going to mix up the numbers but then realised 2 others...
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"Fat" isn't a feeling. Fat is a nutrient and type...
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fjarska replied to your post: Mum has made me a massive dinner. Kinda worried…
I worry about you Bum. :( It’s been a few days now, please see a doctor..x
*hugs* :( thanks
Mum tried to make me an appointment earlier on and she was 11th in the queue, phoning as soon as the lines opened for the afternoon appointments and she got cut off. It happens all the time. Then you call back and the...
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Mum has made me a massive dinner. Kinda worried about eating. I was almost sick in the office after eating soup earlier.
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I’m not entirely sure what’s wrong with me right now. Taken a massive depression dive. I keep crying at really inappropriate times, like now, on the bus. When I’m talking to people at work, doing paperwork… I was sky high weeks ago. What the hell is wrong with me?
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peypea replied to your post: When you sit in your office crying because you just can’t deal with everything.
Take a night out to yourself. Bath, nice film or book or something. Try and relax a bit, you’ll feel better. :)
I wish I could have done. I was working until late that night then back up at 5:30am. Tonight I’m going to the gym. Still feel so sick and having trouble eating...
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I managed to eat one meal today.
Had cottage cheese and two rye crackers. Had two meal replacements for breakfast and dinner. Try again tomorrow. :(
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When you sit in your office crying because you...
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Bonus.
So, I am not getting the bonus I waited almost a year and worked my arse off for. Which is a large portion of my rage at the moment. The company did not reach their targets as a whole so I will not be getting what I am owed. This also means I now will not have the funds to set up my photography business which is what the money was going to be spent on. This also means I will have to continue...
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Eating. Sleeping. Living.
Is becoming something of a chore and something I like doing less and less each day. I know my meals are becoming increasingly more boring but when you are having a particularly horrendous time of it and feel miserable and sick all the time, eating because you have to becomes traumatising. It sounds like I’m being rather OTT but having to eat 140g of protein each day means eating lots of food...
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Fuck this fucking everything.
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WHEN EVERYTHING SUCKS
Profanities below.
FUUUUCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK OOOOOOOOOOOOOOFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
EVERYTHING. I HAVE HAD IT.
:’(
This is a useless post but I just need to get it out.
FUCKING SHIT BOLLOCKS CUNT CRAP TOSS ARSE.
I HAVE HAD IT.
I can’t even go work it out at the gym. CUNT OFF. :’(
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